Saturday, January 29, 2011

I am, but I'm not.

I am neither married nor single, I'm divorced. I have children, but they do not live with me. They are a part of me so I am not together. In fact, sometimes I fall completely apart and I have nowhere to run. I live in a house, but I am homeless.

6 comments:

Cheryl said...

John, I totally get this because I feel it. While my son lives with me, it's just a little over half the time. And someday too soon, he'll grow up and move away altogether. And it seemed like I didn't fit anywhere, at church, at work... because I was neither married nor single. There's a promise I hung onto for a long time. It took too long for my impatience to be fulfilled, but it's happened. It's your promise too, but you've gotta own it.

Psalm 68:6. All yours.

XOXO

Cheryl said...

I meant to say I still feel it, but not as much. God's set me in the most incredible church family, and has brought me some dear Christian friends when I thought it was too late to make new close friendships. There you go. My comment's now much longer than your post.

John said...

Thank you, Cheryl. I will try to 'own it' as you said. It may be a rent to own contract, but eventually I will own it.

And, both of your comments (and now mine) are longer than my actual post. I'm in a short and not necessarily sweet mood these days, it seems.

Ann said...

totally and completely understand. you are normal. this makes perfect sense. this is what i diligently try to impress upon people who are restless in their marriages.

Lori said...

It seems like a lot of us are hurting these days...and it's not a pleasant place to be.

We feel what we feel. No apologies necessary, friend.

Unknown said...

I just got stumble an your blog, and I had to comment. I fel the holy spirit. You are in great place, which is to stand in Christ. God is faithful and he will bring you to Peace. God bless. Sara
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